The time to vent has come. I can’t stand it another second longer. I have to be somewhat vague since this is a public blog and all. I learned that at my last job. Can’t talk much about work because you never know who will see it and what their opinion will be of what I write.
So let’s just say when I am asked to rearrange an appointment because a coworker already asked to leave early the same day and it was before me, how many of you think another person should be able to leave early that same day for their appointment they obviously made or at least told our boss about a couple days before they needed it off? It’s so irritating I changed my appointment and now this other person (in addition to the original coworker) will both be leaving early when I am stuck closing.
The bigger issue here is I am trying to see all the OB’s in the practice before I deliver. So I was going to see a new one and now after rescheduling I won’t be. Sure I have plenty of appointments coming up as I’m now going every two weeks. However my next two are now with the one I like the least. That will put me into the new year and I’ll only have a month and half left. I think I have 2 or 3 other doctors to meet, preferably more than once.
I am hormonal, tired, irritable, and pregnant! Don’t mess with me because I don’t need the stress and you don’t want to work next to an irritated pregnant woman when you were the one who pushed her there!
I don’t feel better but it’s nice to vent and get some of it out. Some days I don’t know why I work.
I forgot to add that when I try to step back I tell myself maybe this person needs her appointment more than me. Everything happens for a reason and all that other crap. I’m still irritated but I try to put myself in others shoes when I can.
A precious child, only a few months new to the world, met the Lord today. I didn’t know him or his family but we had mutual friends. My heart breaks for this family, my friends, and every person who had the pleasure of knowing this little child for his short time on earth.
When I hear of loss I can’t help but reflect on my own child(ren). Too many I never got the chance to meet outside my womb. One I look forward with hope to meet in just a couple short months. Reflecting on my own loss I can’t begin to think how this family is feeling. I wouldn’t even try in fairness to them and the fact that everyone grieves in a different way.
I am heartbroken when I hear about someone losing a child. Age is irrelevant. This family who lost their young infant is hurting equally as much as Paul Walker’s family who also lost their baby who just happens to be 40 years old and a father himself. Same with the others lost in the car crash with him. There is never a time that makes it easy to lose a loved one.
I’ve heard quotes about how a parent should never have to bury their child. I couldn’t agree more. What I find amazing and true is what my friend said, “they packed a lifetime of love into months.” That’s what parents do. Each moment, from the hearing of those first words, “congratulations, you’re having a baby” a type of love begins to form that is unconditional and indescribable.
A lifetime of love is experienced whether for a moment, just a few months or just 40 years. Hold your love ones a little tighter tonight. Appreciate and be sure to prioritize your time with them. Life is too short and often unfair.
Love, Forgive, and Live
It’s ironic yesterday’s post was titled “comfort”. I believe we should all find comfort in our lives and hold tight to it. What better day to do that than Thanksgiving, a day to give thanks and be grateful? How quickly we forget.
The day after Thanksgiving…Black Friday. Some stores now open on Thanksgiving in the evening. So on the day we’re meant to be grateful and the days and weeks that follow between now and Christmas, we hear stories (or are involved in the acts) of plowing others over to the get our hands on the best sale items.
Now everyone appreciates a good sale and I’m not saying you aren’t grateful for what you have if you participate in Black Friday shopping. I am just pointing out the irony… Some shoppers can be vicious trying to get their hands on everything they want to buy for the upcoming holiday. All this is happening on the same day that’s meant for remembering how our country began and everyone gathered and worked together to give thanks and feast in harmony.
Comfort. What brings you comfort? For me it’s spending the day with family. Yesterday was a day of gathering together, relaxing, eating good food, watching some football, baking cookies together, and spending time or talking on the phone with loved ones. Mentally it was a very comfort filled day. Physically not so much.
I have definitely hit the uncomfortable stage of pregnancy. I can’t get comfortable enough to sleep. Last night I felt true leg pain for the first time. My legs (calves) have hurt in the past few weeks but this was a new kind of pain. The kind my friends have mentioned experiencing in their pregnancy. The kind that wakes you up screaming and takes your breath away. It’s gone within 30 seconds but that’s a long 30 seconds in the middle of the night. I thought this was due to lack of hydration but yesterday I probably drank more water than ever.
Leg pain, sciatic pain, lower back pain, and pain in your ribs is common late in pregnancy. It’s all hit me at once. I’m 29 weeks today so I’m almost there. What offsets this pain is I am feeling M&M move more often. When I remember what all this is for it helps me get through it.
The pain won’t last forever, or will it? Maybe the pain just changes from physical to emotional? I know once M&M is here I’ll still experience a pain in my heart. It will be a better pain though. One that’s out of so much love for my child it hurts. No pain no gain and as hard as it is right now being so uncomfortable I know it’s all for a reason. I can’t wait to meet that reason in just a few short months.